Worrier/warrior

Well, I cannot sleep. I am in worrier/warrior mode. My husband has returned from his travels and tested positive for Covid-19. And I thought I would be able to have a rest when he came home. No chance.

My dad and I tested negative so it is all very worrying as now I am trying to care for both my husband and my dad without catching or passing on 'the lergy'.

At times like these I go into practical warrior mode and just get things done. I solve problems before they occur. I do all the practical things that need to be done. I do not know why I do this or when or where it all started. Maybe it is in my genetic makeup. I just do it.

I noticed I did this when I cared for my Mum. It is as if I know that I cannot do anything to change the major problem so I will fix all the little problems. I have continued to go into that mode with my Dad and now tonight I am focussed in that zone with my husband as he has a very high temperature.

I call it the warrior mode as I feel like I am fighting to save my people, my family. But of course the worrier is present too. It is probably the worrier who is the driving force behind the warrior.

Writing this I wonder if it is making any sense to you. It makes total sense in my mind. But my mind is tired and exhausted and is in need of a rest. Maybe some day, hey?

For now, I have flannels to keep cool for his forehead and his temperature to take and water to encourage him to drink.