I am so grateful for the 'good things' that have arrived since my father passed. Here are a few examples. Then: Waking up restless and...

How do I start this? I have not put pen to paper for quite some time. Writing does not come easily to me so thoughts generally bubble up...

As the saying goes, it has been a minute since I have posted on this blog. My mind is clearer now and I have been considering using this...

you think you are free now he is no longer alive but then you begin to realise how almost 60 years of his abuse and mental torture have...

he takes his last breath and you are free. RIP 1931 - 2024.

there is a lot going on as his health deteriorates and I just need to step back from blogging. I need to breathe and live each day as it...

I have been told for years by all and sundry that I need to get away and have no contact with my father to save myself from his toxicity...

the discharge team have found him a new care home. I am relieved he will be somewhere more 'homely' for Christmas but also concerned...

you were always shamed and told you can't write and that no one would ever be interested in what you have to say as you are worthless....

During a recent personal therapy session, I was attempting to process my thoughts regarding visiting my father in hospital. I really...

your 92 year old father is put on a behaviour chart in hospital due to shouting and ‘carrying on’ during the night thus disturbing his...

he is medically fit to be discharged from hospital but the nursing home have refused to have him back there. He had two horrendous falls...

My father's agitation has been increasing lately and he rarely pauses from fiddling with his reading glasses. So much so I thought he may...

Hello, I am still here plodding along on the rollercoaster of life. To be honest, all I have been managing to do for the last few months...

life is getting more and more difficult as his health deteriorates and my husband and I are absolutely exhausted with the burden of the...

About a month ago, my father had been struggling with a number of catheter issues for a few weeks. I kept asking if there was an...

to all the carers out there. Especially those who are up and about during the witching hour when they should be fast asleep resting in...

I have to make the right choice for me and so I have decided to not continue with therapy at this time. Last night was a rough night with...

... was another overwhelming day. I felt like I was in the middle of one of those experiences I have had many times before as a teenager...

...and asking for help. I know now when I need to ask for help and have personal therapy. For a few months I have felt completely...